After more than a year, it's time to move on. Blogdrive, it's been a pleasure blogging with you. I loved your layout options. It was easy to tweak (once you get used to it) and produced wonderful blog layouts. However, you've gotten pretty feeble and cranky lately. Or maybe you just hate me. Cause you always deny me access to my OWN blog and frankly work me into a fine temper pretty often.

So I've now moved to Blogspot.


People, please change my blog url in your links or bookmarks or watever else. New URL is syen.blogspot.com.


Thank you.

This episode was pretty disturbing to me. It had some connection to the post i made awhile before about dying (yea the one with a ton of questions).

Scenario
Train wreck. Two people, Bonnie and Tom, were impaled with a pole right through their torso. Tom had lesser damage and greater chances of survival. Whereas the pole crushed one part of Bonnie's spine and damaged an arteri. The only reason they're still alive is cause of the pole and the shock. Remove the pole and they'll bleed to death.

However, the surgeons only can save ONE of them. They have to remove the pole from one person to be able to operate on the other one. And because Bonnie's chances of survival was smaller, they had to let her go.

Yes i know it's just a show. But it IS possible for it to happen in real life. I just wonder, how DO you live with it day by day??

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I've gotten Planet Shakers' latest album Pick It Up! Thanx Sizzle~ Will listen to it later after i finish watching the 12 eps of Grey's Season 2 from Whye Mun. Hehe.

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I may be moving my blog to Blogspot. Blogdrive's been giving me problems lately. There are times when I can't view my blog and it's very frustrating when I need to get a link to a site (i jus dump site links in my blog so it's easier to find). I'm still messing with the layout in Blogspot so until that is finalized, i'll still be blogging here. I'll notify when i change blog add.

The past couple of days have been real hectic for me. Ding dropped the bombshell on Tues that he's coming to KL the very next day. X_x

And as u all know, my sleeping time is very screwed up. And wif all the 3am World Cup matches, safe to say my sleeping time is gonna stay screwed for a while longer.

Met up with Ding on Wed at 1U and Suit later on at 430pm. Headed to my place after dropping Suit at her seminar since Ding didn't want to be stuffed by his aunt (it was onli bout 8pm. if he went back, his aunt's sure to make him eat smtg. teehee). =) It's been a while since I enjoyed the easy companionship with a close friend.

Yesterday, i was pretty quiet n stoned. Watched a BORING germany vs poland match till halftime before seeking the comfort of my nice bed. And woke up 3 hours later for some unknown reason and couldn't sleep back. GAH!! Ding picked me up and we met up wif Kenrick and Whye Mun at 1U. Someone looked real silly after insisting on carrying my pouch like how u carry a handbag. X_x" Went to Canaanlnd and Kenrick's church before heading back to 1U to meet Suit. Suit n WM left after dinner (Suit had seminar again n WM dropped her off) while Ding met wif Michelle for movie and i went to MPH (to read n to freeze. the damn air-cons in MPH are working EXTREMELY well. pft). I almost fell asleep a few times while reading. So tired siaaaa. Samo so cold. ><" Had to follow Ding back since he had to drop Michelle back at Old Kland Road and didn't really know how to get back. So i was to help direct him. Slight detour to TTDI to meet Suit again. Hehe.

What's worse, my brain has decided to go haywire. When you've had 3 hrs of sleep the previous nite, you'd expect to KO the whole night through rite? HAH! Not in my case. I woke up EXACTLY 3 hrs after i feel asleep. X_X Dreamt i was in MPH (i think i have to stay away fr the place for a while) where EVERYTHING there is made of nanoparticles (i jus read Micheal Crichton's Prey) and Ding (wat's HE doing in my dream? O.o) was trying to whack the nanoparticles thing wif an omega spear (Maple Story's Dragon Knight Lv 80 weapon. yea yea, too much maple. zzz) but the things jus disintegrated (you need to read Prey to get the meaning of this part).

Couldn't sleep for a while. I suddenly had the heavy heart feeling that it's the last day i'll see Ding in a looooooong time. Crap ler. He's not even back in Ipoh yet and i'm already missing him. (screwed up me) Then it hit me that in one month's time, i'll be leaving ALL my frens. I think my heart hit the bottom of my feet d. So sad until on the verge of tears. I haven't felt like this since i was a kid (spent a while in Sg wif my cousins n cried in the plane on the way back cuz miss them so much).

But thank God Suit was online at 4am+ (i read my book for awhile until the dim room light drove me nuts. one bulb kaputted so one bulb left n the dimness is irritating). Talked to her a while. Then crawled back to bed after asking God to take away the heaviness in my heart and letting me have a peaceful rest (prayers answered. God is awesome!).......

...onli to have Ding sending me 3 sms-es at 9.30am and waking me up a whole hr before i was supposed to wake up. <_<" sms, i reply, sms again, i reply n he sms again. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. but too late, too many sms-es n my brain motors all started running d. can't sleep back. >_<

KLANG BAK KUT TEH FOR LUNCH! muahahha. but then it's back to Ipoh for Ding. T_T sad sad sad. i hate parting with my close friends (hint : mei please hurry back!).

[update : Ding jus left for Ipoh. Bak kut teh rocked. Haha. Lucky still rmb how to go (i've onli been there once). Steven got tricked by me. Teehee. Sizzle wizzle~ (tapau-ed bkt for him. then told him i ate it d. he believed me. LOLZ!!) dropped WM back then over to my place to hang out for awhile.He's the 5th person to visit my place. LOLZ. Been here 2 yrs d n onli 5 friends have ever set foot in my home. Mei, Tin, Cheese n Jo El were the other 4. =P]

MSN Snipets

How nice of u Steven. T_T


Sad to say, it wasn't as delicious as i thought it would be.

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I just remembered something i was pondering about last time.

Was at Taman Bahagia LRT station at around 10pm waiting for my parents to pick me up. There weren't THAT many people around at that time and they didn't light the place up real bright.

And suddenly i thought of people being robbed n killed in this kinda situations. My mind tried to conjure up a situation where i was the victim.

What would it feel like to have a knife pressed against my throat?

Would i feel fear? Panic? Try to stay calm and persuade the robber to spare my life?

Or would he decide to kill me anyway?

How would it feel to have the razor sharp blade slide across my skin? (ok this was a bit creepy. i hv a pretty sensitive neck the imagination had me putting my hand around my neck to stop it tingling)

Images of me lying on the floor. Staring at my blood pooling around. Knowing that i'm helpless to stop it's continous flow out of my neck.

Would i panic and go into shock? Would images of my life and those i love flash before my eyes? Would i accept the fact i'm dying, muster the strength to call someone to say goodbye? Or jus lie there, say my silent goodbyes and close my eyes peacefully, knowing i'll be with the Father soon?

And then i started thinking. How would people react? My parents getting the call from the police. My sister from my parents. My relatives from my parents. My friends and people who knew me (frankly i have no idea how my friends are gonna noe. unless my parents or sis calls someone using my hp. if it didn't get stolen.)

Would i be missed? (i know some of u won't miss me) Who would speak during my funeral? What would they say?

=) Overactive mind, eh? Ah well, i'll never know when, how and where i'd die. Could be tomorrow, next week, next month or years later. And i'll never know how i'd react if i was dying.

So, would YOU miss me?

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I just watched Charmed's series finale. And it was AWESOME! So funny yet the ending was so heart-warming and sad. I'm gonna download this ep!

And now it's time for football. May France and Brazil win!! w00t! ole ole ole ole, ole...oleeeee.